Sink or Swim

So I find myself at the edge of the cliff. Do I stay back where it’s comfortable and I feel certain of some things in my life (whether good or bad, but certain and routine) or do I jump into the unknown and unfamiliar? If I’m honest, I have to say that I am scared to jump and move into a place of sink or swim. I am reminded of a time when my daddy was teaching me to jump off of the diving board… He said, “Jump, I will catch you” well, little did I know that all he would give me is his pinky finger…..need I say it was “sink or swim” time for me. I think I am looking at God the same way, “Jump, I’ll catch you” only I am assuming He is going to allow me to sink or swim and not fully embrace me, that it will be up to me alone to survive the next season of my life. Never mind that He has proven himself over and over to me; there is still that little girl inside of me that is afraid He will decide that I am all grown up now and it’s my job to fend for myself. But that’s not Him, His word says He will never leave nor forsake me; that He provides and protects me in my times of trouble and my times of prosperity. If I didn’t know that to be true, I would never move ahead into the future and plans He has for me. I have to know that He will be there to catch me when I am tired, when I am afraid, when I don’t have the strength to take that next move….it is He that gives me my portion daily…..I need only to trust Him and surrender to Him.