Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Quantity versus Quality

Comparing these two as it relates to our time with God and relationships we have.

I think sometimes we think that quantity is better when it comes to our quiet time with the Lord, our friends, spouses, children. But is it really?? It seems as though when we have a lot of time on our hands (quantity), we tend to take it for granted and use that time in ways that do not bring life to the time given.

We are distracted by many things, because, after all, we have plenty of time. So, for example I may have all day with the Lord or my husband, but how much of that time is really spent talking and listening versus watching T.V. or thinking about what needs to be done around the house? Or I may be “doing” many things to further my relationship with the Lord, but how much of it is empty promises and busy work just to check it off my list?

Whereas, when our time is limited, we try to cram as much in as possible. We turn off the T.V., our phone and our mind to the distractions because we want to “engage” ourselves as much as possible. Just ask someone that’s been given a time-frame of life…..they make a bucket list of everything they want to accomplish in that time.

So I am here to say, why wait? Why wait, to “get right with the Lord”, to love our family, to do and say things we think we have time for? When I think of all the things that consume our time, (i.e., TV, Facebook, unusual amounts of time sleeping or working on our “hobbies”, etc.) we do a lot, but often times that “a lot” produces very little. (Quantity not Quality)

Let’s evaluate what is taking our time and if there is not much quality in it, then maybe it needs to go and be replaced with something of substance.

Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” As it is, you boast in your arrogant schemes. All such boasting is evil. If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them. James 4:14-17 (NIV)

Use your heads as you live and work among outsiders. Don't miss a trick. Make the most of every opportunity. Be gracious in your speech. The goal is to bring out the best in others in a conversation, not put them down, not cut them out. Colossians 4:5-6 (Message)

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Earn the "Right"

I apologize in advance if this post is not politically correct or if it offends anyone, that is not my intention, this is just what the Lord has been dealing with me on.....

We, as Christians (the body of Christ), need to earn the right to inquire about a persons’ actions and most definitely earn the right to speak into their life. Allow me to unpack this….

I am so tired of us showing “concern” for a persons’ choices we do not have a relationship with; honestly it is nothing more than glorified gossip. How dare we show concern for a persons’ bad fruit and lifestyle choices when first we have not shown compassion. But isn’t it so much easier to gossip than to get our hands dirty? We have no right judging or confronting if we have not earned the right by building a relationship that can be honoring and trustworthy. But instead of investing in people, we sit on our thrones dictating what sin we will and won’t touch. Honestly, I am talking about “rights” but actually we have no rights, because didn’t Jesus come so that we ALL may be cleansed (which implies we all need it)? But instead, when a brother falls short of our standards, we brush them to the curb until they clean up their act; rather than picking them up, washing them through the spirit of Jesus Christ and walking along side them.

Heaven help us, the body of Christ, the place for broken and dirty people, not people who are already fixed and clean. Are we so far removed from our own filth and brokenness that we forget who and what the cross was for?

Do we confront sin? Absolutely, but if we want that confrontation to be received in love; we have to first be love, be compassion, be Jesus with skin on. Therefore, earn the right to do so.

Monday, September 5, 2011

The Prodigy In Me

We are doing a series at church called “The Prodigy In Me”. As God always does, He brings things to light so that it can be used for His glory. It was through Pastor Furtick’s message last week (www.elevationexperience.com) that I realized how my low view of myself was really a reversed form of pride. Allow me to explain.

Pastor did a terrific job at helping us realize that we all have a prodigy inside of us. Prodigy meaning: someone having extraordinary talent; a marvelous example of; something wonderful, you get the picture. Anyway, through that message I realized this to be true about myself as well. However, another truth was exposed through the message that day and every day since then. My caution of being seen as prideful, arrogant and overly confident caused me to press down the prodigy in me; which are the gifts God has given for His glory, and that is really a reverse form of pride.

See, this form of humility causes me to think less of myself than I should and the pride I wanted to avoid was thinking more of myself than I should. Both are PRIDE, and both hinder the gifts GOD placed in me and YOU. God gives us gifts and talents to exalt Him and be used for Him. So who am I not to use them because of thinking too much of myself in either way. I should have God confidence in what I have been gifted to do and do it with complete abandon. I love this poem and I think it speaks to what I am trying to convey here.

Our Deepest Fear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
Marianne Williamson

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Have you ever struggled with the fear of making a mistake.

Have you ever struggled with the fear of making a mistake that it literally paralyzed you from moving forward with anything?

As I am filtering through some transitions in my own life, I am smacked in the face with that realization. “I am so afraid of making a mistake that I am growing stagnant and not doing anything” (God forbid)

If I expect to walk through life making no mistakes, isn’t that a form of pride? I mean, isn’t it about the journey more than the destination? It takes courage to make mistakes; it takes being vulnerable; it takes being able to say, “I don’t know, but I know God does.”; it takes trust and blind faith. Maybe therein lies the problem~~

I don’t want to be vulnerable to my lack of courage.
I don’t want to be vulnerable to my lack of faith.
I don’t want to be vulnerable to my lack of trust.
I just don’t want to be vulnerable at all, because being vulnerable says….I can’t do it on my own.

Oh boy! I don’t know, but I have made a choice to do it fearful and trust that not “if” but when I make a mistake, God’s grace is enough to carry me to the next victory or mistake.

Thoughts from a recovering perfectionist to appreciator of grace. :)

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

When our beliefs collide with the world’s standards

I don’t know if you ever struggle with this but I have been struggling lately with compromising my beliefs to fit in with the world and with those around me. I have been listening to those voices in my head saying,

“Loosen up”
“Stop being such a prude”
“Get over your-self”
“Everybody else is doing it”


So as I was struggling with the Lord in my quiet time this morning, these are the scriptures He offered me…..

I urge you, brothers and sisters, to watch out for those who cause divisions and put obstacles in your way that are contrary to the teaching you have learned. Keep away from them. For such people are not serving our Lord Christ, but their own appetites. By smooth talk and flattery they deceive the minds of naive people ~ Romans 16:17, 18

A man without self-control is like a city broken in to and left without walls ~ proverbs 25:38

However, when I go to scripture and look at the promises He gives me on living right before the Lord, I find it compelling to move forward in righteousness.

Godly people find life; evil people find death ~ Proverbs 11:19

As for me, I will continue beholding Your face in righteousness (rightness, justice, and right standing with You); I shall be fully satisfied, when I awake [to find myself] beholding Your form [and having sweet communion with You]. ~ psalm 17:5

Look again at the promises…..Godly people find “life”. “I shall be fully satisfied and have communion with Him”.

I don’t write this to bring condemnation and to say that it is easy, because the world makes its’ way look so tempting and appealing, but I have lived enough to know it can never offer the promises our Jesus offers.

So I write to share what the Lord spoke to my heart as I struggle with these same issues; and I have to ask myself do I want to be like everybody else or do I want to be like Jesus? Do I want to fill myself with the world’s standards that result in an empty and promise-lacking life or do I want to fill myself with Jesus and all the promises He offers me? What about you my friend?

I have decided!

Just a video from our last two weeks at our church......

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Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Gift of Intercession & Codependency

Praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints. Ephesians 6:18

I have heard it and believe it to be true…..”The enemy likes to pervert what God creates” Take for example, sex; God created it for marriage and in its purest form, it is a blessing; however, taken outside of marriage, it can bring on curses and consequences that the enemy would like to hide from us.

Well, I feel like God has revealed that our giftings can operate very much the same way. What God meant for good, the enemy perverts. I personally have always struggled with anxiety and codependency issues. I have come a long way in both of these areas; however, I still have tendencies toward both strongholds. But, I feel the Lord is revealing that through my anxiety and codependency is my opportunity to intercede on behalf of the people I am seeking to change or control. (root of codependency) and the things I get anxious about are also my opportunity for prayer. I am realizing that when the strongholds are heightened, it’s more than likely because I have taken back the wheel of control and not turned it over to the Lord. (The one with the real power to control or change things).

The times when I have turned my anxiety and codependent moments into times of interceding prayer, that’s when real change can take place….because I am putting my trust in “the one” that can make things happen and that is the only responsibility I have….to intercede and trust.

Monday, January 31, 2011

Keeping it Real (baring it all)

I have had a really hard time in my relationship with the Lord, as He continues to peel away the layers. One of those seasons where I am doing good to muster a mere “Jesus help me” phrase. Have you ever been there? It’s not a very peaceful place to be, is it? Well, I have been begging Him to rescue me from this dry season and last week during the message at church, He did.

Our pastor has been preaching on “getting our spiritual momentum back” and the very first bullet point hit me right between the eyes. (no pun intended…wink) He said, “The first step in getting your momentum back is… GO TO GOD”. Sounds great, right? However, what he said next was my moment…..he said, “it’s hard to go to God when you are blaming him for your situation” WOW! Let’s sit here for a minute……we may not outright blame him, as Pastor was saying, it’s a heart thing….we may not come out and recognize or readily admit that we blame God for our situation, circumstances, relationships or lack of, etc. But I had to go home and get real and admit where I was in my heart.

My prayer went something like this, “Lord, I have been blaming you, I am angry with you, you could change this season (circumstance, situation, relationship, etc) I am in and I don’t see you moving…….where are you God? I thought you said you would never leave me, well I feel pretty alone right now!!” “So there, I said it, I bared it all and I don’t know what to do with it, but your word says that if I will confess it, you will do the rest….so that’s all I have” If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9

And you know what friend?? That’s all He needs to work with, is our honesty and confession. We can’t get healing on things we aren’t willing to be real about. Nothing can come from keeping things buried and denied. So who or what are you blaming today for your situation, relationship, circumstance? Get real and bare it all before the Lord, He is faithful to handle it from there. I am not out of the dry spell yet, but with each day as I simply learn to acknowledge where I am and by faith, give it back to Him…..I know I will get back my momentum and no things may not get better, but my perspective sure will.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Learning to trust HIM wholeheartedly

So, I have been M.I.A. all summer. (As far as writing goes) Wow, where did the time go? I haven’t wanted to be gone but God has been doing a grueling work in me this summer; much of which I hope to share as I feel led. But here is just a glimpse into what He has been working in me.

Isaiah 26:3 says “You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.” Keeping that in mind…..Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

So, over the last year or more I have been learning to trust in Him at deeper levels with my “needs”; food, shelter, clothing, etc. I know that He will supply all my needs because scripture tells me that, right? Well according to Psalm 37:4, He will also give me the desires of my heart. The problem with that is; I don’t believe that. So how can I believe one scripture and not the other? So glad you asked. The problem is not scripture, it’s me!! Read again……DELIGHT yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. and the other scripture says, “I will keep in perfect peace when I keep my eyes steadfast on Him and trust Him”! So, what I am learning is that when I am not in perfect peace and I am not getting the desires of my heart…..who am I focused on and trusting in?? All of the time, it is ME or someone/something else.

A recent example of His faithfulness; I had asked God to give me confirmation on a situation. I did not “need” the confirmation, but I “desired” it. I had forgotten about asking for the confirmation, and yesterday morning God was speaking to my heart about how I trust Him for my needs but not my desires, so several hours later I was chatting with a friend and unbeknownst to her, she gave me the confirmation that I so desperately desired~~ that may seem insignificant but to me it was an ever so gentle reminder that He does give us the tiniest desires of our heart when we are delighting in Him.

I must admit that it has been a grueling summer because somewhere along the way I lost my peace because I quit focusing on Him and started focusing on me; my husband; my circumstances; you name it and I focused on it. We as Christians should be walking in the promises that the above scriptures tells us and if we are not, then I beg of you to look at what; who and where is your focus? Get it back on Him and feel the peace wash over you.

Desperately in need of HIM!!!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Friday Families

Dear Jesus, I invite You into my family tree. Where there is brokenness,
may You be the Healer. Where there is disease, may You prune so that
new life can begin. Come alongside me as a mom. Let me see the beauty of
these children You have placed in my heart and in my life. Thank you
for walking with me every day. ~~ Proverbs 31 article

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Wednesday Wives Prayer

Lord, help my husband to realize where his help comes from, it comes from You. Help him to know that you will not let his foot slip, that you are always watching and helping him. I pray that he realizes that nothing will harm him because you are His shade, shelter and help. I pray that you keep him from all harm. (taken from Psalm 121)

Monday, June 7, 2010

Monday Moms prayer

Fill this generation with the knowledge of Your will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. I pray this in order that they live a life worthy of You & pleasing to You in every way; bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of You, being strengthened with all power according to Your glorious might so they may have great endurance, patience and joyfully giving thanks to YOU. Colossians 1:9

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

M-W-F Prayer

The purpose of the Facebook page (M-W-F Prayer) is to generate unity in prayer. Some friends and I have felt the prompting to join together in prayer for our children, husbands and families and likewise for the nation. So we thought if we are burdened about this, surely there are others that would be also......so, we are making an effort to call attention to specific times to pray:

Monday Moms will focus on our children and children of this nation.

Wednesday Wives will focus on our husbands and marriages....if you are not married, you can still pray for your future spouse and other marriages as prompted.

Friday Families will focus on the family as a whole.

You can pray anytime of the day or all day without ceasing. I believe in the power of prayer and believe that when we all unite in focused topics of prayer, mighty things can happen.

Please feel free to post prayers, answers to prayer, etc. Let's change our families; therefore, change the world!!!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

"Surrender does not equate to lack of faith or giving up

As I walk a journey with my husband of back injury, surgery and a possible second surgery; I realize that surrender does not equate to lack of faith. He asked me the other day, “Do you think it’s wrong for me to be okay with having another surgery?” My answer to that surprised me, “No, I think it’s God’s peace.”

See, I come from a previous line of thinking that if we just have enough faith…….

I don’t believe that way anymore. God never promised us non-existence of pain, but He said that His grace is sufficient in the midst of the pain or hard circumstances. (2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.)

Faith is not waiting and waiting and waiting for something to happen supernaturally or happen AT ALL, but believing God to be God. Yes, sometimes God does heal or deliver us from circumstances supernaturally, but sometimes God uses the process of walking it out to help mold us and grow our faith and trust in Him. You hear many people talk about how “such and such” is the best thing that ever happened to them. Now, I don’t think they would have asked for “such and such” (or back surgery) and I am sure, given our choice, we would choose supernatural healing or deliverance, but the fact is; sometimes, the journey is the healing and deliverance…..we gain so much more from the Lord when we journey with Him through the process.

So, I encourage you to embrace surrender; that is where the peace is. Don’t believe the lie of the enemy to say that your faith is weak because you chose to surrender to the process….it just means you’re trusting your Daddy to take care of things and knowing that His path is the best path for you.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

"The Disciplined Man is the FREE man"

I’ve been thinking about the quote, “The disciplined man is the free man” and so I decided to research it a bit and I found this online, so rather than recreate this article in my own words, I thought I would share its insight (taken from www.fillthevoid.org)……

He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls. Proverbs 25:28

Discipline Defined

For purposes of this discussion, discipline is:

1. A branch of knowledge or learning (Christianity)
2. Strict control to enforce obedience (controlling flesh to do God's will)
3. Temperance/self-control and orderly conduct (results of discipline)
4. Acceptance of and submission to authority and control (to God and others)

We oftentimes think of discipline as punishment--but it is much more. Did you know that the words "disciple" and "discipline" are based on the same root word which means to learn? As disciples of Jesus Christ we must disciplined. It is imperative that we be:

• Disciplined in making a conscious decision to love the Lord everyday
• Disciplined in making a conscious decision to love our neighbor everyday
• Disciplined in making sure we read the Bible everyday
• Disciplined in listening and obeying the Holy Ghost's prompting/unction
• Disciplined in making sure we obey God's statutes and commands everyday
• Disciplined to resist sin every second
• Disciplined in praying for others and self
• Disciplined in using our spiritual gifts
• Disciplined in serving Christ in our ministries
• Disciplined in regular fasting

In order to become a strong, adult Christian, well hedged in and protected, you must exercise discipline in these areas. Otherwise, a lukewarm Christian life results and all the guilty feelings that come with willful disobedience.
Our theme verse for this discussion is Proverbs 25:28, He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls.

This scripture should be a wake up call for the disobedient. In the old days, a fortified city had big, thick stone walls around it to protect it. In the absence of these walls, invaders could come and go, at will, ravishing the city and its inhabitants. When a person has no discipline they are like that city with no walls. There is no protection so Satan, Beelzebub, and all other manner of foul spirit can invade your life and do as they please. (Remember when Jesus called Peter "Satan" in Matthew?) No wonder so many Christians are walking around defeated. They have exercised no discipline to know God and resist sin. As a result, they are a broken down city.

People oftentimes want a quick fix to their spiritual powerlessness. I've got it--read the Bible, obey the Bible, seek God's face. Once you get into it, it is not long before you begin to see the Lord move.

I hear Christians talking about needing some therapy for sin. This is one of the most ridiculous concepts I've heard. You don't need no therapy, you need forgiveness and discipline over yourself to seek Jesus and stop sinning. If your problem is overeating, say no to the chow and go pray. I had a problem with watching too many animal shows on television, so I stopped watching television and to this day, I rarely turn it on. Paul said some good stuff about disciplining/controlling yourself:


All things are lawful unto me, but all things are not expedient: all things are lawful for me, but I will not be brought under the power of any. I Corinthians 6:12


Did you see it? He said, "I will not be brought under the power of any." You too can say it out loud right now. I will not be brought under the power of television. I will not be brought under the power of work. I will not be brought under the power of sin. I WILL be brought under the power of God. In Jesus' name, Amen. Paul also said:

But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway. I Corinthians 9:27

Your inner man should dictate what the outer man is going to do as you are guided by the Holy Ghost. You have a part to play in your relationship with God. If you love Him, you will read His Word and obey it. He's not asking you to do anything grievous like cut your hand off! The scriptures say that it is your reasonable service to get to know Him through service and obedience.

Discipline Your Flesh

Paul said in I Corinthians 9:27, we've got to keep under our bodies by discipline. Let's look at the specific sin of adultery. How and why do Christians get involved in adultery? Because they do not discipline themselves to say "Yes!" to God everyday. There come days when they say, "I don't need you today, Lord. I can handle this." Notice I said, "days." Christians don't just jump into an adulterous relationship. There are early warning signs from the Spirit of God and they ignore them. Think about David looking at Bathsheba bathing in the moonlight. He knew he shouldn't have been watching her but he continued. In the end, he got her pregnant, killed her husband and the child died too. Not only that, but the sword never left his household.

How would you respond in the following situation:
You are alone in the church library selecting a book. Someone of the opposite gender walks in and makes a remark that you look nice. It doesn't seem like a run-of-the-mill compliment and you are a little taken aback. What would you do?

a. say "thank-you" and leave it at that
b. say nothing
c. tell your spouse what happened

The answer should be an overwhelming C. When you don't tell somebody about this seemingly harmless incident, you can hide it in your mind and roll it around later. Then it's like you and that person have a secret. Tell your spouse so the two of you can watch and pray together. Even though it wasn't your fault, I believe the following verse applies because it points to accountability:

Confess your faults one to another. James 5:16


Trust me, the above incident is not far-fetched. The Lord showed me that close interaction with people of the opposite sex (other than your spouse, of course) should be minimal. Titus 2:3-4 says that the elder women are to teach the younger women. I Timothy 5:2 says men are to treat the older women as mothers and the younger women as sisters with all purity.

Victory over the flesh comes by walking in the Spirit which requires that you discipline yourself to hear and do the Word of God, the Bible.

...Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. Galatians 5:16

Are You a Teacher?

Thou therefore which teachest another, teachest thou not thyself? Romans 2:21a

If you are a teacher, you have an even greater responsibility to discipline yourself. How can you teach something that you do not know personally? Jesus said that the Pharisees be blind leaders of the blind and that when the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the ditch. Don't take your students down with you. Discipline yourself. (This applies to any kind of teaching formal or informal)
When I first began teaching Sunday school, the above verse repeatedly went through my mind and galvanized me into action. Beloved, how can a person teach a Sunday school class when they have no clue about the Bible? How can they testify of God's goodness when they don't know nothing about it because they won't seek Him? How can a person go to church and say, "Amen" when they don't know enough about the Bible to agree or disagree?

You Have a Will

If you have a Bible sitting in your home on the coffee table, don't ask God to make you read the Bible. Just pick it up and read it. Now, if you want to ask God to give you increased desire to read, that's alright, but don't ask Him to make you read--that won't cut it. You've got to make the decision to read. I know that sometimes you're tired or your favorite t.v. show is on, but...
If you won't read the Word, you won't grow and bear the fruit you should. And when you stand before the judgment seat of Christ to give account of what you've done as a Christian, you'll be ashamed because you did practically nothing. This is shameful especially considering what the Righteous One did for you.

Examine Your Life Daily

When you see yourself slipping, get back on track--fast! One day as I pitty-pattled around the house, I found an old secular CD that I used to enjoy. I said, "Why not?" and played it snapping my fingers to the tune. I knew I shouldn't have listened to it, but I overrode what the Lord said. Two days passed and God made me realize that I hadn't read, or I hardly read, my Bible. That CD is in a garbage dump somewhere. It shouldn't have taken two days for me to wake up. When God tells you something ain't right, don't override what He is saying to you, make haste to make amends.

Be a Strong City, Built Up and Fortified


Don't live a spiritually powerless life. God can do for you what He did for His people of old. James said:

Elias [Elijah] was a man subject to like passions as we are...James 5:17

Yet that man, Elijah, was mighty in deed by God's grace. He submitted himself to the Lord. You were made to be a strong spiritual city too. Read about the mighty men and women of God. They were mighty because they believed God and did what He said. It is no different today. Believe God and do what He says and you too will be what God created you to be. Built up and rooted in His Son Jesus Christ.
Let's stop blubbering about our problems and become examples to other believers and the world of charity, peace, and spiritual might. Christ overcame this old world and He said that you are an over-comer because of what He did.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Realizing God is all you need; when He is all you have.

During these times of such uncertainty, I KNOW God is still in control; however, I do believe He is calling us to believe Him like never before. I firmly believe He is raising up a people that is seeing and going to see a move of His spirit of biblical proportions. Lately, I have heard of and witnessed testimony after testimony of how God is moving; but also how people are believing Him to do what He says He’ll do. People are praying for divine appointments and they are getting them…..for example, praying for someone in a restaurant and the person being healed; houses being given for the purpose of ministry; words of encouragement and affirmation; the list goes on.

“If we want to see things we’ve never seen, we’ve got to do things we have never done.” And that is exactly what we are being forced to do; put our trust in an UNFAILING GOD! Not in man, not in a government system or even ourselves…..See we want something tangible to put our trust in, for example, this Healthcare Reform, it may look appealing to the eye now, but then, so did the apple in the garden and look where that got us. God wants to be our soul provider. We are seeing Him move in mighty ways, because we are coming to the end of ourselves and expecting Him to do what He said He would do if we only ask and believe…..

What divine appointment or intervention does He have for you today?

The Lord is a REFUGE for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Psalm 9:9

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Exclusion

Have you ever felt excluded? Like me, I am sure that you have; but let me take that one step further, have you ever felt excluded in a person’s life that you thought you shared an intimate relationship with? If so, then you know the hurt and the questions that come with that. Questions like; “Are they mad at me?”~~ “Do I mean so little to them that they forgot me?” or “Maybe they just don’t love/like me anymore?” All these questions the enemy could use to taunt us with if we let him; however, let me put a different spin on it, “What if GOD asked all those questions when we exclude Him from our life??” {Ouch}.

See, I believe that God does, because He created us to be in relationship with Him. Think about it, when we are in an intimate relationship with someone, we want to be included in every nook and cranny of their life; it doesn’t matter what trivial thing it is….and when we are not, we feel a break down in that intimacy. It is the in’s and out’s of everyday life that build upon the relationship. So, just like it saddens us when we are excluded from relationships in our lives, God feels that same exclusion when we don’t include Him in ours.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Relationship -vs- Religion

Let me start by saying, “I am not setting out to bash the church. Or in NO way, imply that we should throw away the assembly of believers” However, God has really been doing a number on me and placing a burden, not only on my heart, but the hearts of believers all around me. And that burden is the issue of relationship versus religion.

I grew up in and out of church and have been in church my whole adult life. And to be honest, I love church. I love people. I love doing things. I love feeling like I belong. All of these things I have gotten from church and not to mention a wealth of knowledge; however, (in my case, and I can only speak from my experience) it wasn’t until God took me on a 3 year journey outside of the church, that I finally found a relationship with Him. {Please, please, please hear my heart, I am not saying, “leave your church to find Jesus.”} But it took me leaving the religion behind to find the relationship. I was so busy doing and being that I couldn’t find that intimate relationship with Christ that I so longed for and looked for in the church. See, I believe the “church” should be the manifestation of a relationship built with and through Christ not an organization to find religion.

I am saddened because we do so many “good” things and we are “good” people, but we wonder why we walk around in defeat and constantly longing for more. A religion keeps us busy and wondering around the same proverbial mountain but never entering the promise land and the satisfaction that only comes from a relationship in Christ alone.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

So I find myself at the edge of the cliff. Do I stay back where it’s comfortable and I feel certain of some things in my life (whether good or bad, but certain and routine) or do I jump into the unknown and unfamiliar? If I’m honest, I have to say that I am scared to jump and move into a place of sink or swim. I am reminded of a time when my daddy was teaching me to jump off of the diving board… He said, “Jump, I will catch you” well, little did I know that all he would give me is his pinky finger…..need I say it was “sink or swim” time for me. I think I am looking at God the same way, “Jump, I’ll catch you” only I am assuming He is going to allow me to sink or swim and not fully embrace me, that it will be up to me alone to survive the next season of my life. Never mind that He has proven himself over and over to me; there is still that little girl inside of me that is afraid He will decide that I am all grown up now and it’s my job to fend for myself. But that’s not Him, His word says He will never leave nor forsake me; that He provides and protects me in my times of trouble and my times of prosperity. If I didn’t know that to be true, I would never move ahead into the future and plans He has for me. I have to know that He will be there to catch me when I am tired, when I am afraid, when I don’t have the strength to take that next move….it is He that gives me my portion daily…..I need only to trust Him and surrender to Him.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Sink or Swim

So I find myself at the edge of the cliff. Do I stay back where it’s comfortable and I feel certain of some things in my life (whether good or bad, but certain and routine) or do I jump into the unknown and unfamiliar? If I’m honest, I have to say that I am scared to jump and move into a place of sink or swim. I am reminded of a time when my daddy was teaching me to jump off of the diving board… He said, “Jump, I will catch you” well, little did I know that all he would give me is his pinky finger…..need I say it was “sink or swim” time for me. I think I am looking at God the same way, “Jump, I’ll catch you” only I am assuming He is going to allow me to sink or swim and not fully embrace me, that it will be up to me alone to survive the next season of my life. Never mind that He has proven himself over and over to me; there is still that little girl inside of me that is afraid He will decide that I am all grown up now and it’s my job to fend for myself. But that’s not Him, His word says He will never leave nor forsake me; that He provides and protects me in my times of trouble and my times of prosperity. If I didn’t know that to be true, I would never move ahead into the future and plans He has for me. I have to know that He will be there to catch me when I am tired, when I am afraid, when I don’t have the strength to take that next move….it is He that gives me my portion daily…..I need only to trust Him and surrender to Him.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Survival Mode

As I, and several people close to me, go through a season of trial and hardships I have observed that while these times should, and most times do, draw us closer to God and make our desperation for Him real. However, I have also witnessed and admittedly experienced times of separation from Him.

Scripture tells us in Nehemiah 8:10 “Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is our strength”. So if that is true, why do we have a tendency to go away from the Lord during times of trial and hardships? We allow discouragement and the overwhelming pressures of life suck the joy and strength right out of us. We go into “survival mode” of just going through the motions, getting the job done and alienating those closest to us; including the Lord. So if scripture is true (which I believe it is) then we need to go after joy with everything in us, otherwise, we grow weak and weary.

Which brings me to the next scripture that the Lord laid on my heart…..

Matthew 11:28-30 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

So, to summarize these two verses, I hear that IF/when I come to Him when I am burdened He will give me rest and taking it a step further, that His joy will be my strength….then why do I run in the opposite direction? I can’t speak for others, but I certainly have to admit for myself that maybe it’s because:

1. I think I can handle the situation all by myself and that I can’t “really” trust God to handle it.
2. Maybe I shouldn’t bother Him with this.
3. This one I hate to admit, but it’s because I am pouting. Things aren’t going my way or I am not getting the results I thought I should, so I withdraw my affections from Him. I punish Him. I give Him the silent treatment. Better said, I act like a brat!

By the way, all of the above scenarios are nothing more than pride issues; which also I believe is a trust issue. Because trust requires us to let go and believe Him and His word and honestly sometimes I just don’t trust Him, after all how can He care as much as I do about the results in my life?? That’s what the enemy would have us believe anyway.

However, He tells us to come to Him and He will give us rest, so I have to know that when I am not at peace, it’s probably because I am not trusting Him and I am taking on the burdens of my life and this world all by myself….He didn’t ask us to carry any of it. He came that we may have life and have it to the full (John 10:10)….so why am I settling for less than that? I would say it is high time that I humble myself and give my burdens to Him. How about you friend?